When I returned home, I took out my secret diary to write .. I start writing 'dear diary I love dekisuki since fifth grade... I still remember the day, when teacher made me sit beside dekisuki.. My heart raced for him first time.. I felt butterflies in my stomach for first time.. I blushed for first time... When his hand touched mine accidentally and we both blushed.. I still remember him helping me with homework.. I still remember when I fell and he helped me.. When we were assigned to do project together.. The way he helped me.. The way he looked at me.. And that was the day I realized I was in love with dekisuki.. I'm was too dumb (I still am) it literally took me 2 months to know I love him.. I still remember in 6 th grade when we both got seperate sections, I cried the entire day. The way I used to stand out of my own section to look into his, the way I used to look at him in recess or gym class. When I fell and the whole 6 grade laughed but he didn't. In 7th grade we both got same sections and principal even announced that now this sections will be same till 12 grade. The one who will be in section D will be section D till 12 grade. I was so happy that day. I still remember going to his birthday party and him feeding me first bite of cake. I still remember looking at him during group study. I still remember the way he helped me when I couldn't pick up a bucket during cleaning. Everyone called me weak but no one helped me. I still remember when Shizuka, gian and Suneo went on trip and didn't invite me he also stayed with me so I won't feel bad. The way he held me when I cried. I still remember in 7 grade when my comic was collected by teacher, he stole it for first time . He could have got suspended but he still did.i always cried whenever I say him and shizuka together. In these 3/4 years, I realized , I just don't like him.. But love him!!! Tomorrow we have group study at his house. I think I should confess my feelings to him . What if he thinks I'm weird? Let it be I'll confess... I'm going to confess not to hear 'I love you too' but to let him now I love him
- nobita '