Happy birthday they say
While on my face anguish lay
I try and wash it with expectations everyday
Though my faith slowly decay
The world isn't purely Black or white today
Guess my eyes only perceive the colour gray
My eyes, clogged unable to see the right way
A day or another I'll fall in this cold bay
Drowning in it Falling deeper to feel okay
While I have these waves of sorrow to slay
An impossible idealistic standard to obey
Maybe it's the wrong idea i convey
An underlying message to make you stay
Tossed iam by these waves to sway
I feel guilty as if I was the one who did betray
My skin shrinks in this inky water
The worldly pleasures I wish to slaughter
The air that escaped me making my time shorter
Of course I know I shouldn't breathe inside it
Water filling my lungs pained as if iam lit
The fishes passing me by, their fins failing to hit
Can I rest in this state, won't it be fit?
To accept myself as an average, just to sit
To sit in this stream and just quit
All the failures that i should just submit
Life flashing before my eyes i must admit
But there came the hands that did emit
This pure light, suddenly I was out of the pit
While I sat and wondered about the kind hand
I coughed water and blood on this land
I cleaned my eyes to clearly see where I stand
Taking in the air at the edge of the bay
I told myself I have some purpose and shouldn't delay
An interesting character maybe, to portray.