Chapter One Hundred-Nineteen:
Edelweiss Kingdom
"How about us?" he asked me and I clearly heard it though I just ignore it and left him behind without an answer.
The truth, I was hurt for what I did when I left him. We were supposed to get married even though I am older than him there was no problem with that but when my sister died and the whole Cullen Village was destroyed as well as the onslaught and death of not only three important people but of many innocent lives included and the eventual destruction of Kaitsja Town, I decided to leave everything behind and live as a normal person, as a human without using any of my powers as a Witch. I left everything behind including him, and I can admit to myself that I am coward. I was afraid I could still use my vision when I use my powers that were given to me, because one of the things our ancestor passed on to me was the ability to see the past, present and the future.
Something I couldn't stop from happening but I could do nothing with what was destined to happen. No matter how hard we try to change things no one can stop what is already destined. And one of my regrets while I stay alive was the death of my only sister. If only I can do anything just to prevent her death, then I will do it. Even if it means my own life, I will give it to her no matter what.
Present…
Edelweiss Kingdom
Del Gazini's Residence
"Where are you going, Love?" I asked Siara when I saw her leaving with Wei that morning.
"I'll visit Uncle Norward."
"Why?"
"I have something to ask about him."
I look at her trying to figure out what she wanted to ask to Norward. "Can I know what will you ask to Uncle Norward?"
"It is about Lady Sybil. I wanted to talk to her and since Uncle Norward is her father, I will ask for his permission to talk to her."
"Didn't she tell you that she and her father aren't in good terms?" he surprisingly asked that made me a little bit confused from what he told.
"Wh-what do you mean?"
"Love, are you really alright?" he worriedly asked me.
"Ye-yes. It is just that… I don't remember…" I deliberately cut off my words and I decided. "I think that is the reason why I need to see her… again." I spoke. "So, if you can bring her here then that will be great."
Haimon stare at me longer enough to make me feel anxious but then he seems to understand my dilemma. "Alright, I think she really needs to go back and check on you."
"Thank you Love." I said and smiled.
Afterwards…
"So, you mean Lady Sybil already told you about her and her father, right?" Dealla asked me once again and really, I am so confused right now.
All I can remember is a woman helped me to alleviate my bad dreams but I don't really remember who she was. Though the memories of my last dream still on my head yet I don't truly understand why I saw myself from a far future. Also, this void that I am feeling, as if I am losing some of my memories and I badly wanted to remember everything of it because I know how important it was to me. And it seems to have been proven that I really lost some of my memories and it all because I lost Sybil into my memories. That makes me worry and I really hope she can help me after we meet again.
"Yes," I answered as I deeply sighed. "And it seems I just lost one of my memories."
"We don't know that yet. Maybe you just got confused."
"I don't know. But ever since I had this dream…" I take deep breath. "I really don't know, Deal. And I hope as soon as I meet her again, things will be clearer." I just really hope. I silently added to myself.
After a while, Wei came and announced that Haimon finally came back and he already brought home Lady Sybil, the person that I badly wanted to talk to.
…
"Princess Siara." Sybil bowed as a respect before gazing up to me. "I've heard that you suddenly don't remember me?" she directly said.
"Yes, that's true." I honestly answered.
"Have you ever dreamed something after I help you to stop your nightmares?"
I'm not so sure if I will tell her the truth but looking back to my husband, I feel so guilty if I lied so I decided to tell the truth. "Yes." I honestly answered. "But the thing is, the dream isn't a nightmare, it was something beautiful and then when I woke up, I saw my husband smiling at me." I said as I intently stare at him.
"Then, is this your first time to lose your memory?"
"… Yes." I hesitated at first but then I still answered. "And that is what I am about to ask you. Because I feel like I'm missing something. A memory that is very important to me but no matter what I do I will never be able to remember what it is. I always feel the void in my brain and I can hardly feel anything because of it."
Haimon quickly came to my side and hold me. "Sybil what is wrong with my wife?" he seriously asked her.
"As I told you when she suddenly lost consciousness there is something backed down to her that causes her such pain, though when I look at it and try to find out. I couldn't find anything."
"What do you mean you could not find anything?" I curiously asked.
"It is because you block it."
"Me, but… how? I don't even have any powers to do it on my own."
"That is exactly my question, Lady Siara. How did you do it?" she seriously asked.
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