I am awake.
I couldn't sleep anyway, I thought my brain would finally rest since I've been backed with work, school and music left right and centre but I couldn't close my eyes for longer than four hours last night. I ended up going online and there were a lot more people , thousands to say the least who felt miserable on our behalf. Others talked about how they want to see us again and others wished us beautiful futures regardless of which path we chose. I appreciate the positive feedback and I don't mean to be rude but they are all lying.
They don't know me, they don't know Eian...the only people they are going to miss are Zack and Eden they have seen everything about them, they know everything about them..so why do they pretend that they will miss me..us..when they don't know who we are.
Since Alice won't take me on her adventures in wonderland I decide it is better I get some coffee and get some words dancing on my lyric book. I always seem to find inspiration to write on the most random days. I don't have really big dreams for the future, but my major dream is to be a musician.I Hope to write songs that will change peoples lives and songs that are just fun to listen to, most will be relatable but a lot will just be about how I feel in moments like these or just random shit I experience . I wouldnt mind being a ghost artist making songs and music without revealing my face but its already too late for that now.
"Jack! Jack!"
Its only been a few hours since I closed my eyes but I'm awakened by a voice calling me out of my abyss, I guess I must have slept on my desk while writing.Music to the rescue yet again in a world where super heroes only save people in America.
"I'm coming " I reply with a groggy voice while trying to massage my neck - my head hurts. Before I could get up from my desk chair..my mother walks in..
"Jac-..!..what are you doing ?..you should apparently be awake now Ethan just called me because you didn't pick up your phone, he said he sent the directions of where to meet tonight on your phone and you have to come earlier at another location to discuss something with Eian and him ." She says while looking around in my room, its a mess but I'm sure she won't complain. She is used to it.
"Tough night I see, I don't know what to say, I have never really worked with celebrities and I never expected that you would be this big too..but if you ever need comfort you know I am here for you." My mother Diana says with a light smile on her face.I simply just nod at her and pick up my kind of clean towel from the floor. My mother leaves the room as I heard to my ensuite bathroom.."
"Yes, go quickly shower and I will head down and prepare a quick brunch for you..and clean up your room a little will you!" She shouts before she disappears back into the hallway.
I guess that will never change .
Once I am done taking a shower, I properly towel dry myself and wrap the towel around my waist to protect my goddess body from the preying eyes of the ghost in my room.I gently apply some sunscreen on my face and parts of my body that I think will be exposed to the sun. It is hot in Reichenland. After I have finished with my non existent daily morning routine I find a t-shirt in my messy closet and throw it on. Long sleeve round neck as always.
"That was fast." My mother says as soon as I step into the living room that doubles as an open kitchen.
"You are the one who said I should do everything quickly so.." I answer back to her comment while shrugging my shoulders and settling myself on one of the chairs on the six sitter family dinning table and picking up a piece of bread to eat. I am hungry.
"Yeah..yeah..the only time you actually ever listen to me. I don't suppose you picked up your clothes from the floor then?.." She asks while filling my plate with some sausages and boiled eggs cut in half topped with some mayo..her favourite that has now become my most eaten breakfast, she doesn't know how to cook a lot of things ..I don't know how to cook, if Dad is on a business trip then we survive on takeaway..
"Healthy takeaway" according to her.
"I will clean my room tomorrow, you did hear Ethan said I need to get to the meeting on time..plus I think Drè should be here any minute to pick me up, we have to go get my car from the garage." I reply to my mother while filling my mouth with the delicious sausages, quickly stuffing myself so that I finish my food before my brother arrives. On most days he lives near campus with his friend Moses but on some weekends he comes over to the house to visit.Normally it is just my mum and I at home. ..oh and Dad..you will meet him soon..he is kind of ..well..we will cross that bridge when we get there.
"Okay...I will head out to meet your aunt Cecil I need to run now so see you later and don't forget to lock the door for all I know one of your little fans might have already found our house and kill me...I hear the fans these days are crazy, if I didn't love you I would have not let you pursue your dream in music or to even act -huh-the world is a dangerous place and I feel like I'm leaving you to the wolves..oh well..bye.." She speed talks through and runs out the door before I could even reply.
I understand my mother's concern but I think before the fans kill me, I would have died from this heartbreak of mine that is not even intended.
"Yo jack lets go!" Just then I hear the muffled voice of my brother shouting from outside and immediately I get up and drink a bit of water from the tap . I then swiftly pick up my set of house keys and phone then head out the door.
I don't know what will happen tonight but I hope it is not as painful as I think it will be seeing him for the last time. I have to be strong, I am an actor after all ..
I can do this.