It's strange how empty a place can feel even when it's crowded.The noise. The laughter. The random gist about nothing important.
But none of it reaches you.None of it matters.
That's what school felt like now.
I wasn't invisible.People saw me.Some even whispered.But no one came close.No one asked if I was okay.Because by now, I guess they knew the answer.
A Thousand Eyes, No One Seeing Me
As I walked into class that morning, it was like stepping into enemy territory.
I could feel the stares.The fake laughs.The side-eyes.The giggles behind cupped palms.
Amaka had probably spread the news like wildfire.And if she hadn't, Kike's new alliance with Ire definitely sealed it.
"That's her.""She thought she was untouchable.""No friend again. Karma sweet."
I heard them.Every word.Even the ones they whispered low.
And you know what hurts most?
Silence.The people who used to call your name, avoid your eyes.The people you once helped with assignments, suddenly can't even borrow you a pencil.
It felt like the whole world shrank, and I was standing in the middle of a place I didn't belong anymore.
Break Time? More Like Broken Time
When the bell rang, the classroom emptied in seconds.
I stayed.Alone at my desk.Staring at nothing.Because where was I going to go?
The mango tree spot?Gone.That was me and Kike's.She now sat there with Ire like I never existed.
The back of the staff room?No way.That was now enemy headquarters.
The girls' common room?That place was a gossip den.I could already imagine the snide looks.
So I stayed.Right there.Listening to my own heart pound too loud in my ears.
Ire Walks In
I don't know why.Maybe fate.Maybe she came to pick something.But when Ire walked into the empty class and saw me sitting there alone, something strange happened.
Our eyes met.And for the first time since all this started — no anger, no hatred.
Just… sadness.
She opened her mouth like she wanted to say something, then shut it.Stood awkwardly by the door.
And in that moment, I realized it.
Ire wasn't the villain.She never was.She tried to warn me.Tried to save me from the very person I thought was my savior.
I ignored her.I turned the whole class against her.I humiliated her.
And now look.
She left.
But she left with her pride.I lost both my dignity and my peace.
I wanted to speak.Apologize.Cry.Say something, anything.
But the lump in my throat was too big.And she walked away without a word.
Home Is No Better
Home used to be my escape.Now it's just four walls keeping my sadness trapped inside.
Mom asked what was wrong.I lied.I told her school was fine.
Because how do you explain this kind of loneliness?How do you explain betrayal?How do you say "I'm not okay" without sounding weak?
I cried in my room till my eyes stung.
No Kike to text.No Ire to tease.No one.
Just me.
And for the first time in a long time, it hit me:
I don't have anybody.
Late Night Diary Entry
Today was hard.
No one spoke to me.
I realized the friend I trusted most, Kike, was never really mine.
And the girl I hated most was the one trying to save me.
I've never felt this alone in my entire life.
I thought heartbreak was bad. This is worse.
It's the emptiness that eats you from inside out.
I don't know how long I can carry this weight.
Maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe it won't.
I just hope one day I stop feeling like a mistake.