All I wanted was to be someone's first choise. someone's everything but that wasn't written on my fate. so I let go of that futile wish and focused on myself.  Building myself, my career, my life. I wanted to attain every wish I had to forget about " being loved" and I did. Until I met "him" . I don't know what this attraction & hatred i feel all at same time whenever I come near or see him. 

So from my intuition & experience in bad luck i promised myself to avoid him at any cost . But a clap can't sound with  only one hand. why does he always come near me, try to talk with me when he doesn't give any other soul any attention. what is this unavoidable circumstances what always puts us together.  I don't want to be near him , whenever I am I get the strong urge to cry & belittle myself.  The more time we spent together the more this unknown flashbacks come to me. 

what is happening? who is he ? what are we to each other?

Do you know what's most fearful, gut wrenching thing to ever experience? 


Watching the love of your life marrying someone else infront of you own fucking eyes.


Yeah he was marrying someone else, choose her infront of everyone when he really had the chance to choose me. Declaring infront of everyone that " I choose YOU.Its only you or else it's no one ."


But it's all in the back of my head imagining every possibilities of how it would have turned out if he loved me right . If I was his first choise . 


But we live in reality in end of day , not in our imagination or fantasy & in this cruel reality he chose her .


He choose her & I became the other woman  in the blink of an eye.


He declared infront of everyone that Iam the other woman.


_Congratulations on your wedding love_ 


It was the last sentence i threw at him while he put the wedding ring on her ring finger infront of the whole world what we choose for ourselves,  imagining a happily ever after , a beautiful life with your love anyone ever can think of. 


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