Dmitri interrupted Gale like their mother: what if one of us awakened his power like our father, we will be taken like our dad and disappear away from home, no I'm with mom prefer our sample life over the disappearing of one of us.
Gale's heartfelt boiling hate for these few words more and more that his brother made him clench his fist in anger and say to him: no, it isn't a sample we starving we haven't eaten in days The four of us are skin and bones does it matter if I awaken my power I will take care of our family.
Dmitri tried to calm his brother, but he heard him become angrier and angrier making Dmitri nervous and said to him: calm down calm, continue talking with a smile, Dmitri tried to persuade Gale: let's go home I will see if there are potatoes, we can be bought in the village we may eat today.
His brother disgusted at what Dmitri said looks at him with a sad face fed up with the miserable life they live, so he asks Dmitri: we may eat! Is this how we will live forever? When will this end Dmitri?
Dmitri unaware of what Gale wants asks him: what will end? While Voice raises in Gale's head: it's is the opportunity to gather enough courage, I should do it. But he fights himself in the same moment not to harm himself, Gale decides to do it in the heat of the moment.
Gale doesn't stop and continues talking building more anger and more as he talks about their life so he can have courage enough to do it, Gale's grab starts to be tighter and tighter on the revolver.
Gale said to Dmitri in a loud and clear voice: our suffering must end soon; we eat a male every couple of days or so!
Gale proceeded to show himself first and his brother second, he lifted his worn jacket that had holes everywhere to show Beneath clothes every piece of Fabric of it have holes some of them Aline with each other to his naked body but what did it hide in the end is his stomach if you can he have one, that's have been swallowed inside emptied a long time ago revealing what reminds to him is just skin and bones.
Gale shouts words without giving Dmitri a chance to speak: is this liveable life for us, for you, for our mom, she is more miserable state than us, she gives us her portion of food and she upon to starve to death soon she may be eating frozen leaves while we aren't seeing her, her lips and tongue is painted green sometimes, Dmitri didn't you think why are her lips have been looked more greenish day after day, mom could have been trying to eat tree's bark while we are asleep past days as well, that's alone shreds my heart think what mom is doing to stay alive, she literally can't smile anymore do you know why because she doesn't have any muscle in her face she is in a terrible condition more than us brother do like how we are living in this shit, Dmitri.
Dmitri who grew up forced to listen to his parents and his older brother in Silence stands still looking to the ground sorrowful about what Gale telling him doesn't know how their mother lives his been going now for days and days about to burst into tears for his mom's live now, she is in this miserable state that he didn't know about or brush off his mind.
Dmitri tells in anger and sadness Gale: stop please 'holding his tears'. Calm down there's nothing we can do.
Gale was fed up with what his brother said, the bad life they didn't choose upon it. Gale enraged: there's nothing we can do about that no there is.
Gale pulled out his grandpa's black revolver that had been engraved with hidden symbols no one cared about: one shoot I can awaken my power like our father when he faces the bear alone.
Dmitri raised his head with watery eyes and wiped his tears feeling some relief while Gale convinced himself (or I am going to die, our family will be better without me anyway there will be more food, we have more wood than we can sell Dmitri can sell them to uncle Arse).
Dmitri can't comprehend wrongly what His brother said thinking he will go like a strong man in Grandpa's stories and try to survive alone in the woods or train hard day and night to go hunt alone in the woods, but Gale has different thoughts in mind.
Dmitri feels a mix of emotions sadness for his mother's situation and hopes for his brother seeking power to be something that gives Gale hope but soon the hope turns to fear as He sees Gale put the barrel in near his head.
Dmitri remembers what his grandpa says about some families putting their children in dangerous situations either they die, or they force their bodies to awaken their power to survive.
As soon as Dmitri gets hold of what truly wants to do to himself, Dmitri moves as fast as he can when Gale tries to pull the trigger, Dmitri hits his hand hard making the revolver slip from his hand to the ground leaving red marks all over Gale's hand.
Gale looks at his hurt, angrily Touching his hurting hands: sh*t didn't you how much I was trying to do it since morning.
For the past days and weeks, Gale walked into the house talking to all his family saying: if one of us awakens his power their life will turn out for the best they can hunt or travel to the capital without fearing the bandits (but not Infront of Neva). The first time he said it in front his mom yelled: no, no, the military will take you. But Gale's solid head insists he can hide his power easily, insisting, insisting, insisting. Till Neva cry doesn't have the power of mind nor the body to him. Making Gale back down from talking about that at home.
Dmitri can't comprehend why he is doing that to them, Dmitri knows it's wrong, but Gale wants to do it anyway. Dmitri's instinct tells him Gale is wrong in all ways despite he is older and should be wiser, Dmitri ignores what his family told him about listening to his older brother no matter what.
Dmitri tackled him to the ground and pushed the revolver away with his foot. Gale furious started pushing his brother away his eyes wide open looked at his brother in disbelief and said: what are doing do you think that will make our life better!
Dmitri fought with all strength he have, all he care about his brother's safety, despite he is younger he commanded him in anger: leave the fu?k shit are you doing ha!
Gale feeling weak hasn't eaten in a long time struggling to push away while Gale says: tell me how we all going be fin…
Dmitri interrupts him while pushing him to the ground again while sitting above him: shut up we should live together we are family w....we can't live without you, how are we going to live without you tell me how.
As Gale tries to push him away from him and run to the revolver breathing heavily: Brother tell me how there isn't any food to eat our mom will die soon she hasn't eaten anything in days, she may be even trying to eat tree's bark after leaves as well in the night while we are sleep to shut her stomach, do you understand what am I saying?
While looking directly into his eyes. While His brother's hand loosens, Gale lifts Dmitri and pulls his up leg between him pushes him away and runs picks up the revolver puts the revolver in his mouth and says to himself: all or nothing.
But Gale stands still long moment that feels like an eternity while looking at him stand still Dmitri thinks he will stop.
While Gale tearing, he pulled the trigger, hearing his brother screaming, at that moment time started to go slowly for Gale his heart pounding, the adrenaline rush all over his brain and veins forcing his body to make something anything so he could survive or he will die, before bullet goes out of the chamber he starts to feel the bullet moving in the air all he thinks about is he wants to live.
The bullet shoots at his spine and moves as he wishes, the bullet rotates in that tiny space in a fraction of a moment as he wants to live, making it go out through his cheek near the right side of his face near his jaw damaging teeth.
But in the end, he ends up standing in the middle of the snow the right side of his face bleeding all over his clothes to the ground all he thinks about is that he is alive, but his body starts to get numb on second and his consciousness fades away.
In front of his brother, Gale fainted with a big smile that he was alive nothing more important than that for someone who was about to die.
Looking at his brother hitting the ground while holding the revolver can't hear anything except the annoying ringing in his head making him dizzier at the same time seeing Dmitri screaming at him.
But Gale sees Dmitri looks like he screams at the top of his lungs but can't hear him.
Gale is on the ground smiling for his life that hasn't ended yet while bursting into tears fearing for his brother's life It looks like he is about to die from his messed-up face and the blood he is losing.
All Gale has in mind is that he is alive, feeling asleep needs some rest losing him on the revolver closes his eyes slowly while his heart pounds lighter.
Gale smirked slightly before going unconscious slowly While Dmitri stumbled with his hurting leg from Gale's push trying to reach Gale after he kicked him badly.
Gale closed his eyes seeing fear in Dmitri's eyes.