As a former army ranger I always knew life was never fair and fate was a bitch. Life was never equal and fair . It's your job in life to equal out the deck of card your Dealt . Even if they are stacked against you . Accepting defeat in the game of like . Is like accepting a fast drop to hell . Because I am always getting the shortest end of the stick. That's always the case. Bullied in school losing my father figure who was more of father to me than my real one. getting into a bad crowd only to found I bit off more than I could Chew. Like I said life is never fair. The only thing I can accept is equal is we all die at some point. Rather we go to haven hell or something different all together I don't know but it really keeps me awake at night. The night is always full is of dark thoughts and feelings of a similar nature biting into me like barbwire
Digging into my skin. Bleeding me dry leaving me lifeless in bed. Pale like I had seen a ghost. Pale like death is warming over and maybe it is my instincts telling me that today will be a shit day. Always such critic and atheist my dear friend? And excellent my somewhat counter thesis to my atheism is here. She calls herself a goddess of the ever starless night whatever that means. She's always teasing me . About many things but she's like a imagine a friend . She's the closest being to me in this world. She's the one sweet thing in my world view . I wish I could tell her how's close of a friend I consider her . Would she understand what I am trying to communicate or would she brush it off . My feelings are complicated and difficult when it comes to my friend. Hey hey you there? She said waving her hand my face. Hey Nyx sorry I got lost in thought. John just what are you thinking getting distracted when this Beautiful specimen of womanhood has taking the time out of her night to visit you? She teased with a wink leaning over my shoulder looking at my bookshelf as usual. Well she's warm as usual in her effort to get me to blush. So John what's you reading? Hera ? You mean that Hera the most betrayed woman in mythology? Yeah? Wow John I hope that's just Curiosity because you would never treat a woman like that right? She said narrowing her eyes him like she's trying to read his mind. Staring into his eyes, she released deep breath after seconds. And smiles. I knew you would not because I know you best she thought with a knowing smile . Like she's knows of many things causing a little discomfort in the walls of John's soul. So dinner nyx would you like to join me? I say nervously . Like my heart would jump out of chest . Because this is only the third night I have ask. Sure well don't keep a lady waiting I thoughts as she nod . Going to freshen up . I put on my dress shirt and jacket for extra effect . Looking nice when going out on the town is just common courtesy when having a friend with you especially a friend who is a woman . A woman many times beautiful . At least she's smart and Beautiful. But should I really be think these things we're only friends and crap I got to get ready she's probably almost ready. Don't keep a lady waiting huh that's true Nyx but waiting patiently often leads to the most beautiful things. Shower some cologne. And a mint for the extra mile I thought as I step down towards the lobby waiting for my friend. Only to hear some shocked noises. Turing around I see Nyx dress in a Beautiful gown that looks like it was made from the darkest most mysterious color and her wrapped in a long ponytail down her shapely body. Oh hell what am I doing checking her out like that John thought
As nyx walk her up way up to him taking his arm . A gentleman should escort a lady dear John she whispered teasingly . How embarrassing I got captivated by her beauty for a sec . Like a fiend who only looks but doesn't listen. Ha ha are you Captivated by my beauty dear should I be worried that your heart is mine so soon a little teasing has you blushing ? She whispered while holding herself a little too close while I stood their trying to be a gentlemen and failing somewhat. What a lovely beginning to a long night embarrassing myself in the hotel lobby shit I thought. What a lovely night some would think but I know better. Business before pleasure as ways Nyx ? True we have a lot to talk about . A lot has happen during your disappearance. A lot huh I wonder rather she means things have gone to shit or more like more drama among the usual clientele? Nyx seeing me somewhat confused begins to speak. Yes and yes is the answer I get from the frustration in hidden behind her eyes. It's not easy to get her frustrated . Most likely someone screwed up or they double crossed her. Not a good idea messing up or biting the hand that feeds that is I am so luckily we are in the same circle of friends. Not really friends I guess. Some of us pair up or like to work all lone wolf style. Dangerous research is the game and death is the closest when you mess with what you don't understand but I will get to that in a moment. So Nyx how's goes are research or did some rat walk off with it ? I can't hide anything from your eyes John it's like you can see through me completely? But that's like you Nyx mumbles at the end . I still hear you I thought. Anyway Nyx it looks like I might need to go rat hunting if I want to get our research back? No not yet let the rat found its way back I might have delivered a dangerous somewhat package. What did you do ? I whisper nervously ? I might sent a certain experimental explosive to a certain someone new boss. I get it enough so you think this will have what's his name running back for safe he's gonna know that's not gonna work? True but I never said this assistant had common sense. Wow sometimes I for get how cruel this woman can be and this is why she's not just a pretty face she's dangerous researcher with deadly intent towards those who mess around. Pretty simple concept mess around and your dead meat for the beast . This is her essence basically she is a researcher with very few close connections. Who am I kidding I am probably the only one she socializes with. Not that I am any better. Man I really need to get out more . The night is captivating with the moon shining down on the balcony of the restaurant as we eat and talk research. Once again Business before pleasure as always. Not that I would have it any other way. Life is often difficult so why procrastinate and do nothing when you have something serious going on . Why not be serious for a while than relax. True I thought as I ate my somewhat well done steak . Being quiet during meals is indeed what we always do because one don't talk with food in your mouth and two it is a annoying situation when someone just won't shut up when your clearly trying to eat. How lovely it would be for endless night to swallow me whole. A disappearing act Worthy of Houdini. Lovely lovely Nyx thought out loud. Recite and repeatitvng the normal word per word song she always recites at the end of night. Like seeing a friend from faraway leaving to somewhere unknown. Sadly the night has gone and I am alone once again. Doing research while also for at a job that pays peanuts basically, in value is excruciating . Especially my boss . Like working me to death in this life will do you any good. What do you honestly, want now ? I thought as I arrived at work think just great another endless night amount to no sleep at all. I feel good and at the same death is warming over. As I walk through I hear the boss is calling me apparently, it's important though I have my doubts. Anyhow life is often full of doubts and debate. Standing here thinking about it will get me nowhere. Walking into the office I see one fat ass who also happens to be my boss not that I would said that out loud I am not crazy . Not yet anyway but close enough. Clearly see my expression piss him off like just by looking he knew exactly what I thought of him. Huh maybe I am just giving him too much credit . He clearly can tell that I thought something rude or he just thought I did . Whatever it is I need to keep calm because insults by the boss are something those who work have to deal with a daily basis. So what it's just words if he was threatening me that would be A whole another situation altogether. Sometimes acting sane sucks. Being nice to this thing in front of me is distasteful and disgusting. Clearly this thing in front of me is insinuating and accusing me of something I had clearly no part in. Guess it's time to stop keeping things saneness around here because my boss can fuck off . He wants me take responsibility for what he clearly embezzles. Does he want to die because if I get arrested my research partner will not be pleased. Nyx is probably cruel enough to transform this guy into her next experiment on the human body nerves . Shattering at the imagery in my head I pull a test tube from my pocket that I carry . It's a byproduct of our experiments but I just call it forget me I am out of here . And some may question what it does . Well it shocks the brains nervous system to the they have problems regaining their memory a trauma to the brain basically administrated by liquid gas . And why would I carry it you ask well you see and I see a Little shit who clearly needs to forget me so I can go on my way. The only problem with this is it's not just me he will forget and I mean everything will Fry disappointing into nothing . Memories are forever no more I decree I write in the wall with a knife cover in blood from the slash I gave him over his hand while shoving the medicine down his big fat gaping
Mouth. Clearly gaping after the little cut OK somewhat littlest cut on his hand that clearly maybe carved down to the bone. That's the end let's walk . Phantom one dealing all local records of individual A . Smiling at this pop-up I thought . Glad to see we still have back up. This AI is so convenient for the current state of things. We and by we I mean our little circle officially don't exist in the system thank to this Little masterpiece devised by our resident hack master . At least now it's night bad news I need to look for a new job fuck this is going to be a pain in the ass . Still as I said earlier fighting when the deck is stacked against you is Proof of being alive well it's true and I am so proud of my self for coming up with that. Here we go Nyx should be by soon and a certain rat meaning the assistant who pocketed our research should be making their way. After experiencing probably a hellish accident with what seems to be a way of cutting their new boss down to size or more like vaporizing him to nonexistent. Cruel woman did not even leave the family a body to bury . Hell could she have not something less destructive I thought as I look at the news on the TV. Running a Report about a explosion at a thought to be mafia headquarters. Damn it she really kicked the hornets nest . Screwing the pooch like this will definitely draw some attention that we definitely don't want at the moment . Not that my actions with my boss will draw any less attention . Despite everything my boss was a high rolling high ranking individual in the company that I work at . So yeah hopefully not too many people get involved to investigate. Mondays suck. I thought as Nyx came in using the key I clearly remember asking her to return. I shot a look that clearly said really really? Rolling her eyes . Like your any better John killing your boss really what are you 16 again? I have no argument against that I knew I was impulsive at times that was bad for my research that needed pure logic . A mind disorganized is a mind Effective to research . At least Nyx did it in a off hands type of way that it is yet to be seen if the rat is so luck if you can call it that. When Nyx is piss at you she's not afraid to rip a chunk off or two. She's not a wallflower more like a demon goddess in the endless night. Now that I think about it we discarded our old self to make a new. Our names our looks our identity or existence all traded for a new better beginning. Like we created ourselves a new . New beginning. Out with old in with new