[The mountainside at an unholy hour of the morning]
The air grew thin as Jason Todd scaled the rugged mountain path, his muscles burning with every step. The icy wind whipped against his face, carrying the scent of pine and distant snowfall.
He could feel the weight of exhaustion settle into his limbs, but he pushed forward, fueled by the single-minded determination Ra's al Ghul had instilled in him during these grueling weeks of training.
The League of Assassins believed in resilience, both physical and mental, and Ra's was relentless in ensuring Jason embodied their principles. This wasn't just about strength; it was about survival.
His legs trembled with exhaustion as he reached the summit of the towering mountain, the path behind him a grueling climb of jagged rocks and sheer inclines. The cold bit at his exposed skin, the sun dipping low, painting the horizon in streaks of gold and crimson.
At the very top, amidst a small, clear plateau, a figure sat cross-legged. Ra's al Ghul, serene as ever, tended to a small flame he had conjured within a neat circle of stones. A simple iron pot rested atop it, steam curling upward as the faint scent of herbal tea reached Jason's nose.
Ra's glanced up at him, his green eyes calm but keen. "You're late," he said, his voice even, unhurried.
Jason dropped to his knees, panting, and let his head hang for a moment. "You didn't tell me this was timed."
Ra's chuckled, pouring tea into two small, delicate cups. "Every challenge is timed, boy, whether you are aware of it or not. Sit."
Jason dragged himself forward, lowering onto a patch of frost-laden grass opposite Ra's. The warmth of the fire was a welcome balm, and the fragrant tea felt almost too refined for the harshness of his journey.
"Here." Ra's handed him a cup, his movements deliberate and practiced. "Drink. It'll replenish your strength."
Jason eyed the tea skeptically but took it, the cup warm against his calloused fingers. He sipped, the taste earthy and grounding.
"You endure much," Ra's began, his tone thoughtful, "more than most would. The mountain tests your body, but what of your spirit? How do you fare, boy?"
Jason hesitated, his gaze falling to the tea swirling in his cup. "I don't know. Some days, I feel like I'm… no one. Just a shadow. A shell." He gritted his teeth. "I don't even know who I was before you found me. How am I supposed to keep climbing if I don't even know where I'm going?"
Ra's watched him, his expression inscrutable but not unkind. He leaned forward slightly, his voice dropping to a gentler register.
"Memory loss is not merely the absence of recollection—it is the loss of one's own identity. I know the pain of that void, Jason. I have seen it in others, and I have walked its dark path myself."
Jason looked up sharply, searching the older man's face for any sign of falsehood. Ra's continued, his gaze steady.
"But," Ra's said, his voice gaining a subtle steel, "identity is not merely given—it is forged. And that, my boy, is what I offer you. Not just the restoration of what was lost, but the tools to shape who you will become."
Jason frowned, his fingers tightening around the cup. "And who am I supposed to become?"
"I see in you the makings of a man who could bring nations to their knees, a man whose very name will make his enemies tremble. But you must trust me. Trust in my training. Let me guide you, and in time, you will surpass even your own expectations."
Jason's lips pressed into a thin line. "Trust doesn't come easy to me," he admitted.
"I do not expect it to," Ra's replied. "But trust is earned, not demanded. And you will find that I am not without patience."
For a moment, they sat in silence, the crackle of the fire and the whisper of the wind the only sounds between them.
Jason stared into the flames, his mind a tumult of doubts and questions, but there was something steadying in Ra's words, a promise that felt like a lifeline.
Ra's set his cup aside, standing gracefully. He looked down at Jason, his expression softened with something almost paternal. "Rest here for a moment, boy. And when you are ready, descend the mountain. You climbed it once today, and you will climb it again tomorrow. Each step you take is another toward the man you are becoming."
Jason looked up at him, weary but resolute. "And if I fall?"
Ra's smiled, his eyes gleaming with something unreadable. "Then you will rise, as you have always done. That is what sets you apart, Jason. You rise."
Jason watched as Ra's turned and walked toward the edge of the summit, his form blending into the deepening twilight. Once again for the first time in a long while, Jason felt a flicker of something he couldn't quite name. Perhaps trust. Or perhaps the first stirrings of belief in himself.
***
Jason stood in the sparring hall, the clash of steel echoing around him as he worked through a kata. Sweat trickled down his back, his breathing steady but labored as he pushed his body to the limit. Every movement was precise, calculated—muscle memory kicking in even when his mind faltered.
Ra's was watching from a sidelines. Jason could feel the old man's pretense like a weight pressing on him, always assessing, always judging. Talia stood beside him, her arms crossed, her sharp gaze following Jason's every move.
He hated It. The way they looked at him like a puzzle to be solved, a tool to be sharpened and used. And yet, a small part of him—the part he hated even more—craved their approval. It wasn't the League he cared about; it was the idea that someone, anyone, might see something in him worth saving.
"Enough," Ra's said finally, his voice cutting through the room like a blade.
Jason halted mid-motion, lowering his sword as he turned to face the man. "What, no applause?" he asked, his tone dripping with sarcasm.
Ra's stepped forward, his hands clasped behind his back. "I can see the fruit of training with Shiva. You've improved," he said simply.
Jason snorted. "Gee, thanks, Dad."
Talia shot him a warning look, but Ra's remained unfazed. "Your progress is undeniable, Jason. But progress without purpose is meaningless. Have you given thought to what I proposed?"
Jason stiffened, his grip tightening on the hilt of his sword. "You mean joining your little cult of balance and chaos? Yeah, I've thought about it."
"And?"
Jason hesitated, his eyes darting to Talia and then back to Ra's. "And I'm still not convinced. You talk a big game about balance, but all I see is a bunch of assassins playing god." He was willing to play the long game so he could actually earn Ra's al Ghul's trust before he joins the League.
Ra's smiled faintly, as if amused by Jason's defiance. "Balance is not always easily understood by those who are lost," he said. "But I am patient. You will come to see the truth in time."
Jason gritted his teeth, anger bubbling beneath the surface. "And what if I don't? What if I decide this whole 'League of assassins thing isn't for me?"
Talia stepped forward then, her voice calm but laced with warning. "You're free to leave, Jason. But you know as well as I do that you won't find what you're looking for out there."
Jason turned to her, his eyes narrowing. "And what is it you think I'm looking for?"
"Answers," she said simply. "To the questions you're too afraid to ask yourself."
Jason opened his mouth to respond, but the words caught in his throat. Because she was right. He hated how easily she saw through him, how effortlessly she peeled back the layers of anger and bravado to expose the raw, fractured pieces underneath.
Ra's stepped closer, his voice soft but commanding. "You cannot run from yourself forever, boy. The answers you seek are within you, but they will only reveal themselves when you are ready to face them. And I can help you."
***
[That Night]
Jason stood on the balcony of his chamber, staring out at the moonlit mountains that surrounded the fortress. The air was cold and crisp, the silence broken only by the faint rustle of the wind through the trees below.
He couldn't sleep. Couldn't shut off the endless loop of thoughts in his head.
He leaned against the railing, his fingers gripping the cold stone as he replayed Ra's and Talia's words over and over again. 'What if they're right? What if I am afraid to face the truth?'
The door creaked open behind him, and Jason didn't need to turn around to know who it was.
"What do you want, shrimp?" he asked, his voice tired.
Damian stepped out onto the balcony, his arms crossed as he leaned against the wall. "You've been avoiding everyone," he said bluntly.
Jason sighed, running a hand through his hair. "Yeah, well, maybe I just don't feel like being around a bunch of self-righteous assassins right now."
Damian smirked faintly. "Careful, Jase. Someone might think you're starting to grow a conscience."
Jason turned to glare at him, but there was no real heat behind it. "What do you want, Damian? Seriously."
The boy shrugged, his smirk fading into a more serious expression. "I wanted to see if you were okay and not planning to go on a psychotic killing spree when everyone goes to bed."
Jason blinked, caught off guard by the uncharacteristic sincerity in Damian's voice. "Since when do you care?"
"I don't," Damian said quickly, though the slight pink tint to his cheeks betrayed him. "But Mother and Grandfather seem to think you're important, so… I figured I'd make sure you don't do anything stupid."
Jason chuckled, shaking his head. "You're a terrible liar, kid."
Damian scowled. "I'm not lying."
"Sure you're not."
The two of them fell into a tense silence, the only sound the soft whistle of the wind.
After a moment, Damian spoke again. "Do you ever wonder who you were before all this?"
Jason hesitated. "Every damn day," he admitted quietly.
Damian glanced at him, his expression softer than usual. "Maybe you should stop running from it."
Jason looked at him, surprised by the wisdom in the boy's words. For all his arrogance and bravado, Damian had a way of cutting through the bullshit and getting to the heart of the matter.
"I'll think about it," Jason said finally, his voice barely above a whisper.
Damian nodded, satisfied with that answer. "Good. Because if you keep sulking like this, I might actually start to feel sorry for you. And neither of us wants that."
Jason couldn't help but laugh, shaking his head as Damian turned to leave.
As the door closed behind him, Jason stared out at the horizon, the good thing about having no memories was the absence of the past garbage and self loath. It was only logical to focus on the present and work towards a future he would like to create for himself.
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