I am really an idiot, aren't I?
I should have called her, at least after I returned to the academy. I am sure that I am the reason that she is crying.
She should have heard the devastation that happened at Repest. I should have called her, at least yesterday evening. Maybe her worries would have lessened.
"I am sorry, I should have called as soon as I returned. I didn't think. Sorry for being an idiot", I apologized to her before saying anything else.
With the misery I have indirectly caused to her, this is the least I could do to her. There is no other way.
Instead of thinking and analysing useless data, if I need a good and stable life, I need to think more about the people around me, rather than some future scenario.
I should start living in the present, not the future. Living in the future would be how you would lose everything that you have now. So instead of thinking about the shitty future that may or may not be happening in the future, I should live more in the present.
