You all have been amazing, you know?
I started this digital journey with you all on August 6th, 2024.
I remember all the feelings that swirled around in my chest as I sat contemplating whether I should post something.
Anxiety.
Joy.
Fear.
Love.
Sadness.
Happiness.
Loneliness.
Euphoria.
Anger.
Man...so many things and so much all at once.
I remember thinking to myself:
"I really need to get these feelings and emotions out of my head..."
I remember sitting down and writing and writing and writing, pouring everything that I was going through into poems and lyrics.
All of the complex and deep emotions that I had kept locked away in a little box in the back of my heart.
Bodies of work that I never imagined would mean anything to anyone but me.
Bodies of work that I never imagined that I would have the courage to put out into the world.
I am glad that I did.
Even before you all blessed me with 113K views and an additional 53K in Spanish!
With time, my writing became more and more cathartic and less and less triggering, you know?
I have to let myself slip pretty deeply into my memories and emotional core in order to write, and doing so three to five times a week was soooooo taxing that I had to slow it up and post for you all just one to three times.
I hate that, but writing is such an experience for me that I have to take a bit of time between each post, or I'll become a puddle of pure feelings lol.
That would be my destruction.
I have gotten to a point now where I can safely and comfortably slip in and out of my "emotional bank" if you will, and that translates to a bit more content for all of you, my 10-15 loyal readers lol.
I am glad that I can give something to the world, you know?
Contribute in some way, shape, or form.
I don't have any children, so I've always kind of seen these books and poems and short stories and my children.
My contribution to the world and the generations to come.
Maybe, just maybe, one of these weird little works will or has inspired someone else to write.
Maybe one of them has made someone feel JUST better enough to not take their own life.
Maybe something here was enough to help someone somewhere fall in love.
Out of love.
Into a new life.
Out of a bad habit.
Into a more interesting sex life.
ANYTHING.
Maybe I've managed to have a little bit of a positive effect on something in this world.
Either way, this compilation of writings will be here long after I am gone, and I am happy for it.
I hope that they do for you whatever you want and need them to, and I hope more that I will see you all back here for my next collection of poems and lyrics: Fox & Faux.
It will be out soon enough!
Thank you all for your time, energy, and loyalty.
You have kept me going for a while now, and I owe you many more works of art for that!
I love you, you know?
You don't have to love me back lol
It's okay.
Just keep loving my works, deal?
Lol.
See you all soon!
Safe travels, folks.
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Redd.
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