My dear love,
my heart only beats for you.
Love is something to be treasured
delicate, powerful,
something I once believed would last forever.
But I was wrong.
My loyalty, my honesty, my love
all left unheard.
I made the sacrifice of distance,
believing seven years would anchor us.
But it vanished,
just like that
a blink, a breath,
gone.
My faith in us
was nothing but wasted air,
empty words,
beautiful lies.
And what cuts deeper
is the past that won't stay buried.
Yes, I was young.
Reckless.
And I paid the price.
I thought we moved on
I thought we'd grown stronger.
But no,
it was only me,
still reaching.
You found someone new in two months.
Before I could return.
And when I did,
you were already gone,
even though you stood in front of me.
You treat me like I'm nothing,
a hollow shell,
a body to feast on,
then discard
when you're done.
You say you love me,
but love them too.
You say you'll try,
but you never do.
You say you'll stay,
but it's only
air again
vanishing.
I feel it in your kiss
it's not mine anymore.
I know I deserve more.
My mind screams,
"Let go,"
but my heart drowns
in every second
without you.
I can't breathe.
It's suffocating.
You're pulling me
into darkness,
into the deepest parts
of a sea
where no light can reach.
What did you see in them?
What was I lacking?
What did I do
so wrong
that I was replaced
so easily?
Still,
I want your happiness
because I love you.
And if time is kind,
perhaps it will show you
what we had.
But I can't share you.
I tried.
And it is slowly
killing me.
So I must let you go.
Even if it breaks me.
One day,
I hope you wake up
and see this person
for who they are.
I hope it's not too late
when you do.
I'll try to wait
but I can't wait forever.
I will remember
only the good,
the us,
the what if,
the forever
that will never come.
Goodbye,
my love.
You'll always live
inside this aching heart.