Be My Daddy (English Version)

IT'S A MISTAKE

As always, as the clock strikes 5:30 in the morning my alarm clock started ringing. It is so loud that the sound echoed in my entire room. I rolled and groaned as I pulled the pillow at my side and immediately covered my ears, but that did not silence the noise at all. With a frown, I decided to wake up. I want to sleep more but there's a reason why I set my alarm this early in the morning. I have a class at eight and I need to prepare.

Just like every other day, after waking up I went straight to the bathroom, take my daily shower and changed for school. I'm not a morning person but I don't like being tardy that is why I always make sure that I am on time even though my body is always protesting.

After making sure that I'm dressed—well appropriate enough for school, just a pair of faded jeans and a pink blouse, I hurriedly went downstairs to have my breakfast. My mom and our housekeeper Lucy are already in the dining room. The breakfast was already set and I can even see some used dishes—crumbs of bread and leftover sausage in there. I am sure that my dad and older brother are the ones who used those especially since they are no longer in the dining room.  After all, those two leaves for work early every single day.

"Good morning mom," I greeted as I planted soft kisses on my mom's cheeks.  She faced me and gave me a sweet smile.

"Good morning sweetheart," she replied. I smiled too before I took my seat and had my breakfast.

It's a simple meal composed of bacon, egg, sausage and a glass of fresh milk. It's a simple meal and I always have this every day yet it is always satisfying for me.

My mom joined me at the table after a while. I think she already had her breakfast and she's only drinking the coffee in her mug now. I ate silently, taking a few glances at her but I completely raised my head when I remembered something about school that I need to ask for permission.

"Mom, is it okay if I join my classmates in an overnight at Judy's place? We will be making a book report for our humanity class," I asked. My mom looked at me as she wrinkled her forehead.

"An overnight for a book report?" she asked, doubtful. I felt a sting in my heart, somewhat heartbroken when I heard that from her. I'm not the kind of person who lies and it's disappointing to see this reaction from her.

I'm not lying mom!

"Who are you going with?" she added and that made me sigh.

I have no choice but to answer her and recalled my group mates. Our processor grouped us herself and as I remembered, we are six in the group.

"There are Judy, Tyca, Sydney, Jay, and Tuff," I answered. I need to be specific in questions like this since my mom wants to know who I'm with every single moment. So even though my mom doesn't recognize any of them, I still need to tell her who We are.

My mom made a slight nod in response to what I said. "Okay, but make sure that you asked your dad first."

She took her cup and put it in the sink along with the other plates that are now empty. I didn't have a choice but to just keep quiet. My mom leaving the table means that the conversation is over and I can't make another call about the matter. The only thing I can do right now is to do what my mom asked me to do, and that's to ask my dad.

I heaved another sigh as I tried to finish my food. I gave mom another quick look but I then took it back and focused on my food. I don't have the time to worry about this…I'm already running late for school.

In things like this, asking permission is hard for me especially since it's an overnight matter. My parents don't like it when I'm out and staying late with my friends. For me who came from a conservative family, a girl who is still outside at night is not a good scene to see. Even though I'm of legal age, that doesn't exclude me from this strict rule my parents have.

"Yes mom," I answered. I have no choice but to say yes. If I want to go to Judy's place, asking my dad is the only choice I have.

When I finished my food, I went straight to the living room to get my bag. I left it there before I went to the dining. My dad and older brother Daniel already left and they will be out until evening. I will just ask them when they get home.

"Mom, I'll be heading out for school." My mom gave me another look and nodded.

"Enjoy school and don't go home so late," she reminded. I heave a sigh after hearing that but I still nodded.

"I will mom."

I planted another soft kiss on her cheek before bidding goodbye and went my way to school.

Unlike the previous days when we were so busy at school, today is a bit relaxing for us. We just had a few class activities so classes went smoothly. And our professor for our last subject is also absent so I was able to come home a little bit early. I can still stay at school but I decided to just head straight home so I can wait for my dad there.

It was 5:30 in the afternoon when my brother Daniel came home while my dad came home by 6 in the evening. I decided to ask them when we had our dinner, but I asked my older brother first before I went to my dad. Daniel can help me by asking dad's permission that's why I asked him first.

"Okay, but you know what the rules are Anrie..." dad reminded me when I asked him. We are having our dinner when I stopped midway just to ask his permission for our overnight in Judy's.

"Yes dad," I said, smiling. I'm really glad that he's letting me go. When my mom told me to ask my dad for permission earlier, she looks really serious so I thought getting dad's permission will be difficult. But I got it in one try.

I took a glance at my older brother Daniel who is sitting beside me and I smiled at him. I glance at my dad again when I heard him speak.

"You're old enough Anrie, you already know what's right and wrong," he added and I gave him a nod.

"Of course dad," I answered, still smiling.

I'm already nineteen and I already know what things I should do and what I should avoid. I'm already an adult, and I know that I should be careful in everything. I don't want to do an unnecessary thing and make that will make my parents disappointed in me.

"And don't forget to text us every time. You don't want us to get worried, don't you?" he added and I nodded again.

"Of course dad!" I grinned.

My parents are kind and sweet, but sometimes they're strict. There's just me and Daniel that's why they're like that. And since I'm a girl that is why they're overprotective of me. Even though I'm already in college, they still forbid me to do a lot of things. But even if they're like that, I'm fine with it. I understand why they are forbidding me and I know that it's for my good.

The next day, I went out early and went to Judy's house. We will be staying there for two days since her parents are out for the whole weekend. She said that the house will be ours alone and that made my classmates excited. Well, I can't deny it. I'm excited too. This will be the first time that I'll be staying out with my friends without my parents' supervision after all.

Judy's house is a two-story building painted beige. It's a modern-styled house but its interior is more traditional. Huge Victorian vases are in every corner, medium size plotted plants sat on every cabinet in the living room. And paintings hang on the wall.

It's an intimidating place to be. It scares me to touch anything because I might break it…it looks really expensive. But still, Judy's house looks homey…like a five-star hotel.

We decided to make our book report in their study room. It's a really big room with dozen of bookshelves that reached up to the ceiling. Those were lined on each side of the room and are full of books. Name a genre…you can find a book of it in there. I can even see some of those limited books I wanted to buy but sadly I was not able to grab one.

We didn't waste any time. We started our book report as soon as we entered the room. Everyone has their role to do and I was in charge of encoding our report. After a couple of hours—well, it's already late in the afternoon, I finally had a rest after sitting in front of the computer all day while encoding nonstop.

We've already finished eight chapters of our book and we still have about ten chapters to read. I'm already tired and hungry but I hope we can finish about two more chapters today.

"Guys, let's take a break!" said Jay as he leaned on the couch he was sitting on. "I would appreciate some snacks too. Judy, do you have something to eat?" he added and that made everyone smile. I guess everyone's hungry like me and Jay.

"Yeah, sure! Give me a minute." Judy got up and left for the kitchen. As soon as she left the room I excused myself too. I've been holding my pee for a while now; I need to go to the restroom.

"Tyca, I'll just be in the restroom," I whispered to her and she nodded. I smiled a little before I went my way to the restroom which is just beside Judy's room—two rooms from the study room we're in.

When I returned Judy was already there and they are already eating. I took my seat and my eyes darted to the food on the table. There are cookies, chips, sandwiches, and even slices of pizza that I don't know where came from—maybe Judy ordered some before we even got here since I don't recall her calling for a delivery. I shrugged the idea off and took a glass of orange juice and drank it in one go. I'm parched.

"Wait An—" Judy restrained me. I frown in confusion and look at her.

"Why?" I asked as I dropped my now empty glass on the table.

"O-Oh!" She said as she shook her head, that made me wonder. Did I do something wrong?

"Why?" I asked her again—really confused as to what was happening or what I did.

"Err...because of that—" she said pointing at the glass of juice that I just emptied. Sydney and Judy look at each other before they looked at me worriedly. "Uhm...well, you just drank an alcoholic drink..." said Judy which surprised me.

Alcoholic drink? What alcoholic drink?

"W-What?" I asked, confused. Don't tell me she put some alcohol in the juice. Goodness!

"I-I'm sorry!" said Judy, apologetically. "The juice is supposed to be ours. You and Sydney are the only ones who don't drink, so we prepared a separate drink for the two of you..." She reached for a glass of iced tea just beside those orange juices that I drank and smiled awkwardly. "Iced tea?" she offered.

I tried to smile even though I was so nervous right now. This is not supposed to happen…I'm not supposed to drink anything alcoholic. I have never even tasted wine and I do not know how this will affect me. And my dad and mom will freak out when they found out that I drank alcohol.

I heave a sigh and I reach for that iced tea and drank some. Well, I can't do anything about it now…I already drank one. I will not just say anything about this…my parents don't have to know about this, right?

It didn't take a while for me to calm down, especially when nothing bad happened—I seem fine after that drink. But when I tried to read our report that I'm supposed to encode later I immediately stopped. My vision started to spin and I began to get dizzy. 

"Ah!" I complained as I held my head.

This is bad! I don't feel fine—I'm getting nauseous. It feels like I'm about to lose my lunch and everything seems blurry in my sight. I tried to prevent myself from closing my eyes but it feels heavy. Before I knew it…I'm already lying on the sofa where I was seated.

Drinking is not really for me. I only drank juice with a small amount of alcohol in it, but look what it did to me. I hate this!

"An...are you okay?"

I heard someone ask so I tried my best to look up. I don't know if I'm right but I think It's Sydney. I can't make out who it was since everything is blurry to me. She's standing by the sofa and checking on me.

"I'm dizzy..." was the only thing I can say to her before I closed my eyes. I'm nauseous, and looking at her is just making everything worse, I need to rest—I'm getting sleepy.

"An! An!" Sydney tried to call and I tried to look at her again, but I can't focus my attention on her. My eyes are heavy now and before I knew it—I already fell asleep.

• • •

Hmm...what time is it now? I thought as I rolled in where I was lying. I even flinched when I felt the hardness of the floor in my back.

I opened my eyes and look around the room. Well, it's dark and I can't see anything. Where the heck am I? And why am I sleeping on the floor?

I sat up as I tried to figure out where I am right now. When finally my eyes adjusted to the dark, I can finally make out some of the things in the room. I realized that I'm still in the study room where we stayed earlier. And I think it's late since it's already dark outside.

I started to feel dizzy again so I began massaging my forehead. But I immediately froze when I noticed something beside me. I look at it and immediately clasped a hand in my mouth when I realized what it is. It is not a thing…it is someone—someone sleeping beside me.

What happened? That's the only thing I can ask.

I want to scream when I saw him—when I saw what situation we are in. We're both lying on the floor and completely naked. I opened my mouth to say something but nothing came out of it, and I don't know why I can't.

After a moment of daze, I finally dared to hit Tuff in his shoulder. Yes, Tuff's the one lying beside me.

What happened? I tried to ask myself again. I can't remember what happened and it's making me insane.

"T-Tuff! T-Tuff!" I called trying to wake him up. I did shake him but not so hard since I'm afraid to even touch him. When he opened his eyes, he turned his head and looked at me.

"An?" he asked, confused. He sat up and that made me grab the blanket that was clothing my body as fast as I could. It was nearly taken away from me when Tuff sat up. I wanted to cry, but I forced myself not to.

"What happened? What did you do to me?" I asked, trying to suppress my tears. He looked at me—just looked at me and didn't say anything. Shock, doubt and horror are obvious on his face. Looking at him made me burst into tears, I can't suppress it anymore.

What did just happen? Why are we beside each other and without—without—? No! It can't be!

"Nothing—" he said and stood up. He picked his clothes up and started getting dressed. I averted my eyes as soon as he did that before I can see anything.

"TUFF! What did you do?" I asked, angrily. I can't just accept that answer from him.

Nothing? Just nothing? That's the only thing he'll say to me? How dare he!

"Nothing happened—okay!" After getting dressed, he faced me. But he can't even look me straight in the eyes—he's avoiding my gaze. "Nothing happened, just forget it," he continued. I frowned because of anger.

"F-Forget? What?! But Tuff—" I tried to demand but he cut me off.

"Get dressed—the sun will be up soon." With that, he went straight to the door and opened it. He did not even dare to look back at me and went his way outside of the room—shutting the door behind him.

I was left dumbfounded, confused, and scared. I burst into tears again—grabbing the thin sheet of the blanket up to my neck. 

Why did he say that? If something happened between us—he just wants me to forget it? What a jerk!

I wiped the tears that trailed down my face. I'm feeling heavy as if my heart is being pounded by a hammer. I took my clothes and got dressed and decided to go to Judy's room where we are supposed to be sleeping.

I opened the door, slowly. I don't want to wake them up and I don't want them to see me—to see me like this.

Judy was sleeping soundly when I entered the room. I even doubt that she's aware that I'm not beside her.

I again felt downhearted and I can feel that any moment now...I will finally break down and cry. Why the hell did they leave in the study room with Tuff? Why didn't they bring me here in our room? Why did they take me for granted?

I'm angry—really angry but I know it's not their fault. It's not their intention to leave me in the study room alone with Tuff. But whatever I say to myself, I am still hurting. There's a part of me where I'm partly blaming my friends. If they didn't leave me alone, that should not have happened between me and Tuff.  They should have taken me here, especially since they knew that I'm drunk.

I wiped the tears from my face again as I lied beside Sydney and hugged her. I need someone to comfort me. I'm tired and I'm in pain.

"Hmm...An?" said Sydney which surprised me. I didn't know she was awake.

"Sydney," I called and I can't help but tighten my grip on her shoulder.

"Are you okay?" she asked even though we were not facing each other—my face is still in her back. I smiled weakly as I tried to prevent myself from crying again.

I am not okay! I want to tell her that but I don't know if I should.

"Err..." I started, really don't know what to say. I don't know where to start since I don't remember anything. A sudden silence envelops us and the only thing I can hear is the soft snoring of Judy.

"An?" she asked again when I was not able to answer her.

"I-I'm okay," I lied. "Let's just go back to sleep."

I heard her heave a sigh but she didn't say anything more. I want her to ask me again…to check on me more, but she didn't do it. And that brought a sting in my heart. But maybe this is for the best. Maybe it's better to just keep it to myself. Maybe I should just do what Tuff suggested me to do. Maybe I just need to forget about it.

I heave another deep sigh as I closed my eyes. But then again, tears fell from it. I can avoid it as much as I can but I can't change the fact that it already happened—that I already lost that one part of me. I just made a mistake without knowing it.

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