MISS EVA

I entered the restaurant and he was still there,waiting.I glanced at my watch,it was midnight.That was how badly he wanted to speak to me.My heart crushed for him,I sympathized.Did he deserve it?No.He was a jerk,at least I thought. "Eva,you came,"he seemed surprised and relieved to see me. He stood up to help me take a seat across him at the table by pulling the chair back for me. "Thanks,"I said in almost a whisper. "I thought you wouldn't show.I'm glad you're here,"he said as he took his seat.He sounded nervous and that was a bad sign.A nervous Carlos?Never thought I'd see the day,but there we were. "I almost didn't come to be honest,then there was traffic,so you better make this worthwhile,"I said trying not to show that I was still upset with him.He nodded as he bit his lower lip,as if not sure where to start.I was upset but I couldn't not notice how hot he looked.New hair cut,that white T-shirt through which the tattoos on his chest were visible... He lightly took my hands, which I had rested on the table,into his.I wanted to pull away but I couldn't.It felt so good. "Should I get you something to drink first?"He asked. "No,I'm good,"I politely declined and gathered the strength to pull away from his soft touch. "So,tell me,"I reminded him that he wanted to talk to me about something. "I don't know what Lauren told you but we are not together,"he started."We broke up before I moved here.We figured we couldn't do long distance and she didn't want to come with me,"he continued. "Then why would she lie to me?"I asked,not wrapping my finger around the whole situation. "She assumed we would be getting back together,"Carl explained further but it left me more confused. "Why?"I asked "She's pregnant Eva.She's expecting our child.She came to Mexico to tell me that,"he dropped the bombshell and my heart dropped into my stomach.I swear I could hear my intestines twist in there. "She's eight weeks now,"he added.I was wishing he stopped talking.That was a lot to take in,God! "Say something,Eva,"Carlos begged as I sat there in silence. "What am I supposed to say?The man I love is expecting a child with another woman.It's a lot to take in,"I as I blinked in a bid to keep my tears from falling.I lost and the tears came crushing down my cheeks.Carlos was smiling,I didn't know why. "That's the first time you've said that.That you love me,"he said and I understand why he had smiled earlier. "I'm sorry Eva,"he said and stood up from his seat.He went down on one knee in front of me and offered me his handkerchief. "You shouldn't be sorry.I wish things were different.I wish I had known you at a different time,"I said as I dried my tears with his handkerchief. "Me too,I'm sorry it is complicated,"he whispered again and I stooped a little bit to hold his chin as a sign of reassurance.I caught a tear in his beards.I thought I always loved complicated,till that day. "We'll be fine,"I said to him."But I hope you understand that I can't be with you Carlos,I don't want to be reason why your baby doesn't grow with you by their side.I wouldn't be able to forgive myself,"I said and he buried his head in my lap.He was crying,he was losing it.I could tell from the tears that were seeping through my emerald dress.I softly rubbed his hair to comfort him. I lost him even before I had him.Love!